My Blessing !

             
"Blessed are those who snuggle and hug, spoil and pamper, boast and brag, for they shall be called Grandmothers !"-Anonymous.

Time flees so very fast. Doesn't it ? Today you see yourself hand in hand with someone special and in a jiffy, you're just left with that memory to reminiscence. Its been two years and not a day goes by without me recollecting you each day ! How surprising is it ? I live each day, feeling that void in my life which can only be filled by you. This person I'm talking about, stands above everything in my life. My Grandmother. I know everyone of you have that lovely bond with your grandmother, yet I will stand firm on my feet and say-"My grandmother rules !".

Two years ago. Same day. Fateful night. She goes to sleep. My world goes upside down. Next morning she's still sleeping, in a box. I crash at her feet all day long. Tears. Helplessness. Those memories still haunt me each day. Reminding me that I've lost the most valuable possession in my life. YOUR LOVE GRANNY. YOU. YOUR TOUCH. YOUR HUG. YOUR SMILE.

I still have so many memories of you. All so real. All of them still breathing. These are a few of the many many stupendous things that I always miss in my life !

1. Her phone call every month. Each time she got her pension, I was the first one she rang up from that one-rupee booth. I remember her bugging the booth guy for coins. All sweet granny talk she did. Oh ! What love she had for me ! Once she completes the call, she got my phone recharged, without fail. With little money she had, she always made a point to share it with her cranky grandaughter.

2.  Her yumm yumm food. She cooked with all her heart. Always. When I used to come home all tired and hungry, super granny came to the rescue. Say whatever, food she fed me will always top the charts of any  amazing diner ever.

3. Her  *awwiieeee* pampering. I loved cuddling up in her lap and dozing off with a book, while she always kept nurturing me. She magically took away all the pain in my heart with her soothing touch.

4. Her style of braiding my hair. Trust me, she does wonders with braiding the hair. She would beat any *so-called-stylists* any day. She loved long hair and I loved flaunting it for her. Just for her.

5. Her *secret-sneak-in* treats. She got me so many chocolates and turned me into chubby girl. She always got me a treat. I turned into a child, with all chuckles at the sight of it.

I could go on. And on. She meant the WORLD to me. She still is ! She took care of me. More than a mother. She made me live. She taught me to survive. She taught me love.

Oh granny-If you're listening, I want to tell you that I love you. I love you more with each passing day. I hug my pillow and cry away in your memory. Today when big things are happening in my life, I do not get to see you. I do not get to come running to you, hug you and tell you, "Look my heroine ! I got a job ! I am an Engineer !" I never get to cry in your lap. I never get to wake up in the night scared and sleep by your side. I never get to give you that foot massage. I never get to laugh insanely with you. I never get to hug you, my love ! Wherever you are angel, I miss you.

All I wanted to convey was, no matter how old you get each day, you grow into a lil' baby for your grandparents. They love. They scold. They nag. They care. However they are, love them. Love them always. Not everyone is unfortunate like me to lose both of them. If you have any of your grandparents still present in your life, GO FRIKKIN TELL THEM, HEY I LOVE YOU MY YOUNGSTER ! If you have lost them, today, sit down. Pray. Pray for their beautiful souls, for there is no greater love like it.

R.I.P MY LOVE ! You will always live. You will always breathe. You will always be cherished. You are my savior. My angel. My blessing.

Forever Young !

                
Well the thought for this article popped into my head while I was playing with a 3 year old kid this morning. I know kids are adorable and etcetera, but I came across the cutest sight today. This little girl sat down on the floor, with her legs crossed, holding a bowl of chocolate powder. She was extremely careful in making sure, not to spill a spoon out of the bowl.

There's nothing great to that sight, yet she made me smile, thinking of how insanely unblemished that time of childhood is ! If you recollect, I'm pretty sure everyone of us love that one phase of life. Love it ? Oh I would give up everything to live those days again. So, I had this genius idea of listing some classic cliches of that phase.

1. School days ! Putting on those lil' uniforms and those pigtails, kitty backpack, as your mom drags you to school, while you're trying to fake an ache in every possible part of your body. Now ? mother throws on a bucket of water and you drag yourself to go to work, or your boss calls up to give you that early morning blessing while you imagine him being hit by something or drop dead. Also, we take an hour to pick up what to wear that day. Big task, ain't it ?

2. Fights ! Rolling in the mud and hitting each other, while parents pull you away from your so-called-enemy. And why is he your enemy ? He must have either poked you with a pencil or secretly ate up your snack pack. These days ? Reasons can be either getting into a brawl while the traffic gets jammed or Oh! you know what ? he/she put up a status on facebook, which I'm pretty sure it's about me so let me scratch his/her eyes out.

3. Friends ! You make friends with the ones who play with you all the time and share their lunch boxes with you. You would do anything to have that play time fun and never let them go. These days ? If I ask you hey, what's your best friend doing these days ? And I get the reply, I'm not really sure, but I do remember him/her liking my status the other day. I should ping him/her.

4. Parties and Makeup ! You put on your frippery frock or your favorite T-Shirt with Ben 10 on it. Cover your face with talcum powder and *this solely applies to lil girls* lipstick out of the lines. The only excitement would be,"Yay ! I'll get to eat the cake!". Present crowd ? Party ?*this again applies to girls* OMG ! I have a party coming up in a month. I better start shopping now. I have to get a dress, shoes, accessories and blabbityyy blaaah ! *What a huge task, ain't it ?*
And guys ? Let's pick something, drown yourself in perfume and text your friend, "Let's get wasted brother!"

5. Decisions and Responsibilities ! The only big task then was to decide how well to lie to your teacher, to cover up the fact that your mom/dad did the homework for you. Now ? Decide your life, career, aims, goals, life partner, mba or gre or gmat or some other crappy exam *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

6. Thoughts ! The only thought then was which game to play in the next break, when will I get my barbie or my hotwheels track. Now ? How do I update my status in a way it taunts him/her ? How do I make enough money, to get that car ? How do I pay my credit card bill ? How do I get those steve madden's next month ? *waaahhhhhhhhhhh! I'll faint now*

Realize how demented life became now ? We hardly have time for ourselves, let alone the time to reminiscence your memories. I know career and everything else comes first, but don't you miss that life where innocence played a huge part ?

Let's go back. Live that time again. Take a leap of faith. Make a list. Burn Crackers. Call your bestie and say, I Love You ! Hug your security guard and say, "thank you." Someone sad ? Leave a cute message. Make them smile. Get a paint-ball gun. Do gardening. Play cricket in the streets. Break a window glass. Ride a bicycle. Get onto a truck. Play in the hay. Cuddle street dogs. Buy a book for the slum kid. Be a santa for someone deprived. Do wild things. Shout out loud. Travel. Be a hippie. Stay forever young!

A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be ridiculous than be absolutely boring"-
Marlyin Monroe

One strong word "attitude" makes me wonder, what it actually means. From the time I've been growing up, I was asked to stick to some people because of their attitude, also, I was asked to stay away from certain people because of the same word. Funny isn't it ? We use a single word, to determine someone's personality and that one single word determines our chemistry wid 'em. Well, my journey of life so far has taught me some rules of life.


I had tons of people judging me. I learnt lot many lessons. Some were painful, some were fun to learn. So to summarize it, I thought I should list the 10 golden rules and give it a read, each time I start losing out on my morale.

1. Someone judging you because you wear revealing clothes? Tell 'em-I'm proud o God's creation and I'll flaunt it. You're just ashamed o your body. Rather than judging me, sit in a corner and learn to define your own boundaries.

2. Someone hurting you ? Well it ain't 1947 to show your other cheek. Kick them hard in the nuts and make 'em feel that pain o getting stabbed, cuz no one has any written right to hurt you. No One !

3. Someone blackmailing you ? Show your finger and tell 'em to go get a life. So what ? I ditched you. Get your life together and do something with it. You ain't getting successful by spying on me or crying over my life. Tell him you're a COWARD AND A LOSER. Just turn gay, cuz I'm bloody sure you just born without it.

4. Someone bullying you ? Don't take it. Stand up on your frikking feat and aim back at 'em. Tell that person-So what if you good at something ? You can never be a good human being all your life, cuz you are an animal filled with EVIL. Good luck going to hell man, cuz you know what ? It ain't gonna be pretty at all.

5. Someone judging you because you consume alcohol ? Tell 'em- Dude I pity your life cuz you know what sweetheart ? You don't know how to live life and you'l probably die in some old age home sulking about your sad pathetic life, which will come to light wen you're incapable o even feeding yourself.

6. Someone broke your heart ? Stop those useless tears and pull yourself together. You aren't an animal to depend on someone to live. You can write your own destiny. And re-write that person's destiny too. Show him/her that you can, not just survive but LIVE your life way better than he/she can ever imagine.

7. Scared of something/someone ? Don't be too chicken to face the fact. Either solve it or just stop living, cuz you're an insult o God's creation.

8. Failing at something constantly ? Go and get some help. No one ready to teach you ? Stop making  pathetic faces and surf something useful. Don't just learn it, excell in it.

9. Something troubling you ? Well solve it yourself, even if you have to go head over heels for it, rather than paying your savings to some middle aged psychiatrist who will later furnish his apartment with your problem. There is no such problem without a solution you can't find yourself.

10. Finding no reason to live ? Having thoughts of suicide ? Rather than saying it, go do it. Because  you're just a failure. The reason for that failure is YOU. There are lot more people who deserve to live in this world. Atleast you can save some torture to people around YOU.

Keep your attitude alive. Most importantly keep it RIGHT. Don't kill it for anyone. Wanna survive ? Look in the mirror. The solution is standing right in front of yourself. Never cheat nor be cheated. Live but don't let people to live consuming you and your emotions. Remain YOU till eternity.

Let's go somewhere beautiful !

                                               

Scorching heat and the disappeared wind ! Nothing else can make your day worse don't you think ? If you wearing on your grumpy pants, then your day can do no good to you ! Most of us are only trying to lock ourselves in a room, while the AC wraps its cold blanket around us. Everyday I sulk about the weather and keep ruining the entire day. While this was going on, I happened to have a beautiful dream.

I lay in my bed, wondering where this life is taking me. With the surprising turn of events, I started to judge everything and everyone around me. I've been listening to constant lectures on how to live life. I get all energized on listening to them, but again my life fades into a sad little picture. Usually, dreams don't make me feel magical but that day, it felt different.

I slipped into a dream and suddenly, I opened my eyes and stepped out of my door. My feet touched the heavenly grass, which was still moist with the dew drops. I looked around and everything was so radiant. I had the beach gushing from the distant. I saw butterflies flying in happiness. Every beautiful flower opening up to the mighty sun. Birds being so chirpy about the sun. Long roads, shining with the sun. The tress dancing with the wind.

I raced my feet through the grass. I walked upto the beach and sat down making castles. I watched the beach play with me while splashing drops on my face. I felt relieved and sane. I witnessed glory. I watched the sun sink into the beach. I was reminded of nothing but divinity. While I sat at the shore of the beach, little fireflies lighting up the view for me, with twinkling stars in the sky.

I gradually woke up from the dream, yet it left me thinking that life only makes you experience your choice, good or bad. You choose and you live it. I've been choosing bad and suffered. Not anymore. I've experienced good and loved it ! It might sound ridiculous, yet a tiny lil gesture changes everything. This dream was my gesture, look for your gesture !

So what if the sun mocks at you ? Put on your sunglasses, hold onto a radiant umbrella, wear a beautiful sundress, smile at the sun, have some yummiee yummiee ice-cream! Watch the night glitter, while the stars lighten up your wait for a new beginning to rise the next day ! Stop cribbing and start loving yourself, cuz you know you're the most special one !  Let's go somewhere beautiful !

Witnessed something beautiful ? Do tell me at harithaharry28@gmail.com. Stay Happy this summer :)

The Treasure Box !

                                                                         
Remember the good old times when you used to save all the precious little things in a treasure box ? I'm sure each one of us took care of it so dearly, by hiding it in a safe place and open it when no one's around. Wonder why I'm talking about all of this now ? My life has been a constant roller coaster ride for sometime now. My new job, new people, hectic work and other things have kept me so busy that my passion for writing, painting, reading have been locked up in a little treasure box.

While I've been busy with everything else in the world, a strange incident happened. I happened to visit my father's college, where he works as a lecturer. I met my dad's assistant. Pretty lady, simple attire and innocent. I sat down talking to her. She walked me through my dad's routine everyday. I was surprised listening to her. When I visited my dad's library, I saw lot many saying and quotes pasted on the wall. I examined them closely. They were dated ages back. I asked his assistant about those posters. She replied saying that, "Every time your dad reads a book and finds something good, he pastes it on this wall."

I went to my dad and asked him,"Why do you paste all this stuff on the wall ? Do you think anyone will ever read it ?" My dad replied,"I know not everyone reads this, but it is my job to do it. Even if one person notices it, it may change his way of life. He may learn something new. I will then be able to sleep with a smile on my face, hoping I helped somebody."

This conversation with my dad made me wonder about my lost passion. Everyone of us have that zeal in us to do something in life. Passion, craziness, to get there, make it happen should be the words that run our life. This busy corporate life just takes everything out and puts in a box. Do you want to see yourself, aged around 60, open your treasure box, find your passion lying helpless there and say to yourself, "I'm too old for this stuff?"

I opened my treasure box today and wrote an article after ages. Miss your passion ? Search for your treasure box, pull your passion out and do something about it. Create a new world. You have one life, live it on the edge. Stand unique. Walk against the crowd. Discover a new YOU ! 

A Reason to SMILE !

                                                             

                               
Its been a while that I have been lost in time, working like a machine. I am burning inside and the screams are suppressed with my lies. I stand there and look at myself in the mirror. My reflection is talking to me, yet I walk away ignoring. Because I was too scared to face the truth. The truth of getting lost in the dark world building inside me.

I don't know the reason, yet I don't want to make any attempts of finding out what has been happening to me. I felt all alone and couln't sense anybody else. This war with myself kept going on. And I was getting accustomed to it. I see no light, no smiles, no love. The whole wide world seems to be turning darker and darker. I just sit there and slid back into thoughts, which saddens me even more. When I try to think about something else, the whole lot of color is just splashed on with black. I go back to where I was. The battle never seems to end. It is surrounding me neck deep and I am willingly getting pulled away with it.

The screeching sound of the car's horn wakes me up from all these mad thoughts. It takes a minute for me to realise where I was. I am sitting in a car, my friends are giggling on some joke, the red signal was beaming in the sun and there was traffic all around. I peep out of the window. I couldn't help but notice one particular boy. He is holding a bunch of aeroplanes and moves from one car to another, trying to sell as many pieces as he can. The sweat shines on his face, with the roaring sun. His body looks weaned out. I could see that hope in his eyes, each time a car's window comes down, hoping that this time he would make money.

Then I realized, here I am sulking over my own life, which is well built and there was that little boy trying to make a penny so that he can eat some food. How selfish we tend to get at times, that we forget the very thought of being so fortunate in this world. How blessed we are, to have a roof under our head while there are people who stuggle their heart out, just so they can buy a brick. I couldn't stop from cursing myself. Maybe I needed a push. A step towards happiness, a step towards life. Life talks to you in mysterious ways, doesn't it ?

All I wanted to convey was, life is indeed short. Don't ruin it by trying to find a reason to be sad. Live life to the fullest. Write a line. Walk without slippers on the grass. Ride a bicycle. Play with the raindrops. Smile at the sun. Turn off your gadgets. Travel without a destination. Build a tent. Sit with a book. Watch a candle burn out. Fall asleep watching the stars. Build endless memories. Stay crazy !

As always, do tell me about your memories, at harithaharry28@gmail.com :) I'm all ears !

I-HEART-YOU

"The Backpack Song" in repeat on my player, my legs swinging in sync, lying amidst the long colorful charts and paint brushes, my eyes looking for you through my thoughts, and I was lost in my very own world. A world of only "YOU AND ME" and no dawn at all. My sunshine was your smile and my very definition of happiness was YOU. Oh ! I would give away everything for that one moment when you encircle me in your arms. And I rest there for eternity, in the happiest place ever.

While my love for you kept building its castle, my phone kept beeping. Irritated, I went for it. I saw YOU flashing with that dented smile, that kills me like it did the very first time. Each time we have a conversation, I still feel nervous carrying a jar full of butterflies, while my kohl smeared eyes glitter to your voice. I immediately ran towards my treasure box where I captured "OUR" moments of the divine LOVE we share.

There were many memories breathing in it. I never liked PINK and the idea of being whiny nor gooey romantic. But when YOU happened, my world turned upside down *I know, it does sound very cliche*. I kept digging into the box and it was magical. The first piece of paper from the class where we first met, tickets from the journey we first shared together, bills from the meal we first had, those whole lot of dried up roses, tiny glittering vintage showpiece, the scrapbook you made for me, the letters i wrote for you, my journal and many more.

Everything just took me back to that crazy journey we had together. That journey when we walked against the crowd, making our own destiny, writing our own LOVE STORY. We were reckless and we lived our age. We didn't care. We walked miles, traveled for endless hours, just to see each other. How much I miss those homecomings. Each time either one of us stepped out of that train, we engulfed each other, as though it will be the last time ever. That going-away kiss filled in the void when we stayed apart. And there was no looking back, because we loved each other too much. And we said to each other "There's NO WAY I could let you go".

Coming back to the present time *because I have to !*, I still miss those days. I miss every bit of my growing up, with YOU. I miss myself, with YOU. I miss EVERYTHING about YOU. Because our story was SIMPLE, yet the BEST, just like him. We did write letters to each other, despite gmail,skype,etc etc. We did have those lonely walks and those never ending talks looking upto the stars. Huge cars, coffee shops, popcorn baskets and movies blah blah never existed because we built a world that was simple. We traveled for long hours in that slow train, just to feel that ecstasy when we saw each other after one crazy lonely period of staying apart.

Sometimes, life is worth living when it is just the sane and serene part of the world without the-so-called-pretentious-phones, the-we-flaunt-our-love-through-Facebook, those dates where the actors of some movie are also accompanying you, those vexed up coffee shops and UFF ! the mad list goes on. Take a moment and try creating some simple memories. Write a letter. Watch the sun doze off with that ONLY ONE. Walk hand in hand. Take a walk. Hug like there is no tomorrow and never let go. Kiss while the stars twinkle. Love more than you did the previous second. Create your own LOVE STORY.

Any of you who wanna share their stories ? i'm all ears. Do tell me, harithaharry28@gmail.com. I'm just an email away.